Monday, November 23, 2015

Short weekend recap

I've had such wonderful feedback from my last post. After a few people e-mailed me, I realized I can't allow the negative people from my past to keep taking from me. I'm almost positive that I won't be deleting my blog. If anything else comes up, or if I continue to see traffic coming from the cities that those people live in.. I will make this blog private. Simple as that.

I forced myself to step out of my current comfort zone this weekend. I'm so grateful that I did! I went to the Lions game and had some adventures downtown. 

Lions game and Jimmy Howard. Total win. 

I got to see a sneak peak of the auto show, got to go into the venue I saw Corey Taylor at when it was empty and a band was doing a sound check and so many other random things. It was a lot of fun. I absolutely needed a day like that. 

I'm really looking forward to blogging more and I'm really praying that I won't have to make this private. I'll be sure to keep you updated on that! 

Monday, November 16, 2015

On to the next one?

I made the decision that I wanted to come back to blogging. However, I honestly think that I'm going to have to leave this blog and start a new one. Which is very sad, but at this point I'm so sick of all the drama and games. 

After my last post I received a very immature and disturbing Facebook message from a family member of my ex. Asking why I didn't disclose other information about things I did. The allegations that were listed in this Facebook message makes me completely understand why I'm getting prank calls almost daily and why friends and family members of my ex keep contacting me. 

Sometimes when people are wrong, they place blame on anyone they can. And I guess when that same person lies a lot, they'll never admit to false statements. Yes, I have a lot of proof, including voice recordings, that would make these people think twice about what they were told. However, I'm not looking to play dirty. I'm actually not looking to play at all.

The games that these people are playing are absolutely pathetic. I'm very grateful that I'm out of that situation. It has made me realize that it wasn't just the past two months that I was lied to and used... it was the entire relationship. Realizing that has made it so much easier for me to be happy.

There was not a single thing I could of done to prevent the cheating, the bullying and everything else. Not having the house completely spotless when he came home early, not finishing folding the clothes before he noticed, not properly hanging my towel, and not knowing that I should of had his oil changed in his car had absolutely nothing to do with it. It was just another excuse to yell at me and make me the bad person.

I'm so sick of dealing with all of this. I don't want to start over with a new blog, but I'm not okay with certain people reading it. 

I appreciate all of you that have e-mailed me about this situation. Your support has been exactly what I needed in order to deal with all of the pathetic drama. I'm at a really great point in my life. I'm feeling more positive than ever and currently in the process of making a wonderful life change. I'm so excited for what the future holds.

Monday, November 9, 2015

Not ready to make nice.

I have felt unsure of how I would be able to get back into blogging after what I've recently went through in life. I'm still trying to figure out life after everything. It's almost pathetic that I wish I was the bad person in the whole thing. That would be so simple. I'd feel horrible for the choices I made and eventually I'd be over it an on to the next. 

It's frustrating that even after explaining that my mind starts thinking about how all the lies that were made and all the bullying he encouraged will never make him feel bad at all. I'm more than sick of allowing people to try and break me down for not realizing what he was doing. This is my time to be open. This is my time to speak the truth. I don't care who reads this. I'm done letting someone make me a fool when I gave absolutely everything.

For the past month or two I absolutely hated this quote. I made my mistakes, I should of behaved better.. However I changed a lot. I proved that I changed. While working things out I had absolutely no idea his friend and the friend's wife (that he has talked negatively about previous) were trying to hook him up with a teenager (one that he also talked very negatively about). Yes, a little girl that lacks experience in life. A little girl that wanted the world to know that she was going to win him.

This would be the time that I remind you that I was living at his house and we had another house in the works. We had plans for marriage, even made a room for our first future child. "What color should we paint the baby's room, or should we just do a neutral color and repaint when the time comes?" was his question multiple times. So the first time I heard about this little girl trying to "fight me for him" I laughed. 

Eventually I learned about his friend and the friends wife threatening me. Claiming they'd show up while he was at work and tell me to leave. Also telling him that I was probably baking desserts in attempts to poison him. Little did I know that he was a major part of this. He made them believe this.

It makes me feel weak that I believed his word. I'm sick daily thinking about how he'd come home early to cuddle and go to bed early with me. I had absolutely no idea at the time that he was trying to make other people bully me and I had no idea he was talking to a little girl. 

Confronting him about doubts only made situations more extreme. The way that he got his friends wife, this teenager and his sister to bully me on social media was sickening. I didn't want to believe it so I trusted him over and over again. I was dumb.

One day he decided to apologize for how bad he hurt me. He held me and tried to make me feel better.. he left shortly after and didn't come home that night. 

The truth is, he told everyone we had already broken up, months ago. Would come home to a clean house and want to cuddle and be romantic with me. He used me and was completely okay with it.

I had absolutely no idea the things he was saying about me because he was being more into me than I was into him. I had doubts in my mind and I should of trusted them, but it was hard for me to think that the person I thought he was could be such a hurtful liar. 

I packed my stuff and left although he has told everyone he kicked me out. I'll let him say what he wants. This young girl is going to learn a hard lesson, but she earned her win. 

He's called me on the phone and apologized and talked to me like the person I thought he was, but in any text or email he tries to act like some tough guy and accuse me of things that don't make sense and it's officially clear that he was trying to make me out to be the bad person.

And maybe one day, he'll find out what it's like when the tables are turned. To be honest, I don't care. Karma can take over. The hurt I've gone through will never be forgiven. I did far too much in the relationship and the house. He'll never be a man in my eyes.

The last time I saw him was the beginning of November and we woke up, he kept kissing me and I reminded him that this would be the last time and he kept saying, "Stop. That's not true".. hmm. Not sure how someone that can say that and is already talking to someone days later.

It's no longer my concern. I was made the bad person and the fool. Truth is, liars will lie. Cheaters will cheat. It's sick. I've lost far too much weight. The past 1-4 years I've been between 125-128lbs.. I went from 126lbs to 113lbs (I'll only weight myself at the end of the day lately, so it might be less) in a little over a month. I'm not happy with it and I'm doing my best to be healthy and fit, but it's hard constantly being sick from being lied to for so long and cheated on.

I did plan on giving more details, but I think I did a good enough job. At the end of the day, I'm so thankful that I'm done with someone like that. It hurts that I was lied to and hurt so bad. However, he could never be close to the person that I thought he was. So while he convinces everyone I'm obsessed with him and whatever else.. I'm even more grateful that he lied about much more than I'm going to explain to the public since I'm still unsure and don't know if specific things are current legal issues. 

At the end of the day, I'm hurt and I feel like a complete fool. However, I'm more than grateful that I'm not going to be making a life with someone that I never actually knew. All I know is that I'm no longer his fool.

Monday, June 29, 2015

My favorite summer accessory.

Now that it is officially summer, I'm really praying that I'll have time this summer to get to the beach! I swear I have at least 10 bathing suits that I haven't even worn yet. I also am trying really hard to get fit so hopefully I can wear one of the many crop tops that I have.

This also means that I'm in need of some new belly button rings! I've been searching for a few that would be perfect for summer. I ended up finding a few from Freshtrends that were very affordable and will be perfect!

I love the seashell one! And obviously love the anchor ones because they'll match my new tattoo.

(This picture was taken while it was still healing)

I'm looking forward to this summer! I'm also looking forward to having a chance to show off my new belly button rings and get a tan! 

Do any of you have a favorite summer accessory?

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

My life now..

It's been a while since I've posted. I understand that the amount of readers I have has gone down. However, when I first started blogging it was for me. I'm grateful for the people I've met through this blog and always will be. It's something I never expected. So if you're still reading this.. here's a little update on where I'm at in my life..

I feel the the luckiest girl in the entire world every single day. Finding the man of my dreams and being able to plan a future together has been nothing short of absolutely amazing. I'm beyond excited for everything we have planned.

Currently, we're spending our weeks between his house and my parents house. We stay at my parents house if it's a night before I work since it's closer. I've never lived on my own.. I have a great relationship with my parents. However, I've really enjoyed spending half of the week at his house and taking on "housewife" duties. 

He works extremely hard, never asks me to lift a finger and at the end of the day he's asking what else he can do for me. It makes it easy and enjoyable for me to wake up and want to clean or attempt to cook. It's absolutely wonderful to have someone so motivated and hardworking.. but also someone who wants to constantly surprise me and acts silly with me.

Many people have asked me why I haven't completely moved in with him since he owns his own house. I'm always very excited to tell everyone that I'm moving in with him when his new house is ready! This will take place this summer. 

With only a few months left, I'm doing my best to learn all that I need to know in order to be the best "future wife" I can be. He makes it very easy.

It's been so wonderful to have so much family love from both sides. I've never felt so accepted and loved by someone's family and my parents have never been more proud and loving towards anyone I've ever dated. I've never been so happy and I'm constantly grateful for every thing we've both gone through before we met. I know that we both deserve this amount of love and happiness. I'm so excited to see what the future has in store for us!

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

My addiction.

I realize I never got back into blogging. Life has been insanely busy, yet absolutely wonderful! Can't wait to catch you all up, very soon. However, there is something I want to post about.. my Fitbit addiction.

I got a Fitbit for Christmas, I was excited to get back into working out. Then I quickly realized that you can add friends on Fitbit and compete with them. Daily, weekly and weekend challenges. All of a sudden, I was addicted to being competitive with my steps.

Then my amazing boyfriend decided to get me a treadmill so we could workout together at home, or so I could run while he was working on the new house or if he was at work or school. So the first night on my treadmill I was so excited about all of my steps.

Then.. I started getting him involved in cheering me on so I could beat everyone I was competing with. He even would walk or run with me. Even if it meant we were going to run in place while watching Marriage Bootcamp.. Yes, we love the show.. blame it on my (and his previous) major.

I begged him to get a Fitbit. It wasn't until I told him I was going to buy him one that he decided to buy one that same day. I was excited.. until I realized that he never stops moving and is constantly ahead of me or just a few steps behind.

My mom is always in first place, so I pretty much know that no matter how many steps I get.. she'll be at the gym for an extra hour or more just trying to get so far ahead no one can beat her. I've caught myself multiple times telling my boyfriend to stop walking around the house and just slide... Yes, crazy to think that I begged him to get one.

Not only can you compete with others, you compete with yourself to get to your daily goals. You also get to a point that you're making secret goals in your head and get determined to beat them before midnight.

I haven't been posting much on social media, but I have been occasionally posting Fitbit related things on Instagram. So next time I beat my highest steps, I'll be sure to post. Feel free to follow me username: Mandyshippe

Also, if you have a Fitbit and want to join in on challenges feel free to add me! 

No, this post was not in anyway sponsored by Fitbit or anyone else. I do however envy anyone who was able to write a sponsored post by Fitbit. Lucky bitches. 

Well, it's time to get back to my addiction.. Happy stepping!

Monday, January 5, 2015

New Year, New Post.

I wanted to make blogging a resolution, until I realized that I don't make resolutions. However, I can make more of an effort to get back into writing. So consider this my first step in the right direction..

I'm beyond excited for 2015. It's already off to an amazing start. I'm in a relationship and I'm extremely happy. He treats me like a princess and loves to surprise me with cute and lovely things just to remind me how much he cares. The holidays were wonderful. We spent Christmas Eve with my parents then woke up Christmas morning and opened gifts, then spent Christmas with his family. 

Hanging our first ornaments we got for each other.

Laughing too much to be able to pose for pictures.

New Years Eve we decided to just have a relaxing and stay in. We drank too many beers and after our kiss at midnight, we cheers our favorite shot; fireball..

New Years day we didn't make an effort to get up or be productive until we were sick of watching HGTV and had to head back up to my parent's house for dinner. Much needed relaxation!

I'm very excited for everything that 2015 has to offer. I'll be celebrating my golden birthday, 23 on February 23rd. My boyfriend is taking my parents and I to see Garth Brooks on February 20th and then he's taking me to Nashville the following weekend and bought me tickets for the game so I can finally watch my Red Wings play in my future city! 

I'm so grateful for everything that happened in 2014 that led me to where I'm at in my life right now. I feel like the luckiest girl, everyday. It's absolutely a feeling I can get used to.

Hope you all enjoyed your holidays!! 

Monday, November 10, 2014

Stress and happiness update.

I wish I blogged more so I wouldn't be stressing over how to even write this post. I'm still overwhelmed with school and work. I still barely have time for myself. However, things are starting to look up and it's hard not to be happy lately.

About two or more months ago I completely gave up dating. I was so sick of hearing how I'm too busy. I was so sick of being lied to or mistreated. I was completely okay with not wasting my time with unneeded distractions. 

Then on my first day of class, I text one of my best friends telling her I was going to marry this guy in my class. I obviously assumed I'd never have the courage to speak to him. Every time he makes a statement during our family dynamics class discussions, every girl in the room instantly light up. An insanely attractive guy who completely respects women, it's clear I'm not the only one in that class not used to that combination.

Fast forward to two Sunday ago.. We went on our first date. It was honestly the best date I've ever been on. I've never been treated so well. All of the things that I've wanted from guys in the past that made them tell me I expect too much, he did. It was just such a nice change to feel happy and comfortable. 

We also went out this past Saturday. He was able to meet my mom and she completely approved. Although we just got food a few drinks and talked for hours, I completely enjoyed myself. I'm really looking forward to being able to spend more time with someone who is so motivating and positive. It's also been nice to have someone who understands my crazy schedule firsthand. 

So it might be the only time that I enjoy having the same class twice a week. It also might be the only time that I really don't enjoy how quickly my 10 week classes are going by. I'm not rushing anything, I'm just enjoying my happiness. I'm pretty damn sure I completely deserve this. 

I still want to be able to get back into blogging, it's been a stressful time and I plan on next quarter taking off a realistic amount of time opposed to trying to please everyone and having to really think hard about if I ate or if I slept more than 2 hours. My comeback will slowly happen. 

Saturday, October 4, 2014

"You never have time for me."

If my blog could talk, that's what it would say. That's actually what many people have been saying to me over the past month or two. On Monday I started school again. I'm not going to lie, I've enjoyed being there all day Monday and all day Wednesday. I get to take too many notes (I love physically writing) and I don't have to deal with work, or anything except class.

I've been saying I've wanted to come back to blogging and before school started, I had no time to sit down with my macbook long enough to focus on a post. I still don't have much time for myself, but I plan on making time during breaks between classes to work on blogging.

Lately, I've been really fed up with people making me feel bad for not having time to spend with them. I don't even have time for myself. "If you wanted to hang out, you'd make time." Really? I'm pretty sure I can't add more hours to the day. I'm over feeling like I'm a bad person because I work too much and go to school more than full-time. And honestly, I've been pretty numb towards the people who have been acting this way towards me.

I think that's what I miss the most about blogging. I can completely slack on blogging and when I show up, I have people who are actually excited to read a post. Thank you so much if you're one of those people.

Also, if you watch The Voice you may have heard the voice I've been obsessed with for years. I was beyond excited to watch him on the premiere.. they saved the best for last!

Anyways, I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend! I'm ready for some Fireball! Cheers!

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Time to catch up...

Although I really should, I haven't quit blogging. I've been drafting posts and none of them seem to get the job done. I feel so far behind on just about everything. So if you're still sticking around I'll fill you in super quick on some of the things that have been happening in life. 

I don't start school until the end of September because I have quarters (10 week classes) opposed to semesters (15 week classes). I've been working pretty much 7 days a week at both jobs. Exhausted? Beyond!

I took one of those wine painting classes with my mom a few weeks ago.. I think it's obviously that I'm not an artist..

I've been single for a few months and honestly, I'm sick of dating. I'm considering just worrying about my own schedule and my own happiness. Maybe I should make a post this week about how much dating sucks.

I did meet a guy. Our first date was absolutely perfect and I laughed and smiled more than ever. We talk every day and I was finally feeling really happy. However, I don't know that I can deal with his job. I've been trying, but it's hard. Go figure. 

The dude I dated for 3 years came over one night a few weeks ago to drop off beer. That turned into a few hours of catching up and me realizing why I deserve better. I haven't talked to him since, except when he tries to brag about things I don't care about. 

I finally changed my hair color! I've been wanting to go red, but always did a temporary brown with a red tint. When it faded it'd be super noticeable. So I finally had the courage to go permeant. Here's a before and after...

It might be hard to tell from the picture, but it's more of the color that Chelsea from Teem Mom has. 

I've been so busy lately and really lacking motivation to do anything when I have a little bit of free time. I promise I want to be back on here more regularly, I've been saying that forever. But, I've had some time to think of blog ideas and I really want to get the ball rolling.

As always, thanks for sticking around!

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Business Cards

About 3 years ago I started making beaded bracelets. I had originally planned on opening an online shop, but never got around to it. I've been selling them at my mom's salon and they're still doing really well there. I get a lot of requests to make ones of a certain size or color. I've been really wanting to start making more and maybe even getting them online.

As I look around at different online shops for ideas on where to start I realized I'm missing one thing that I need even if I don't have an online store; business cards. I've been doing my research and have seen a lot of great reviews for different business card sites. Here's a few I found helpful.

Based on the reviews, I really want to try my luck with Moo. I like that they have templets available or you can create your own. Plus they seem to be very affordable. These are some of the designs I really like.

Have you made business cards online? What site did/do you use? Feel free to give me any more tips or opinions!

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Can I just stay on vacation forever?

I have been dying to go on a vacation for MONTHS. I have also been dying to have more than a day off in a row. Then I finally got 6 days off in a row to go on vacation and it's already over. It honestly feels like I've been off of work for 3 days. Sadly, I just got back home and have a full to-do list before I have to work a double tomorrow. Which means I can't get into details of my vacation today, but I will leave you with some pictures and promise to share more and give details about my trip in the next day or two.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Clearing my mind...

I mentioned before that I've been overwhelmed with emotions lately. Since I'm on day 1 of my 6 day vacation, I really want to focus on clearing my mind and fully relaxing. There are many things that run through my head or keep me up at night lately. I'm allowing myself 6 days to free my mind and really allow myself the vacation I deserve.

Another thing I've mentioned recently was that I started using essential oils. When I first heard of essential oils through bloggers who sell them, my mind instantly went to those body wraps that everyone was trying and selling. I wanted to try oils, but I really wasn't sure if they would actually work and I wasn't going to pay $30-$50 for a small bottle of a blend just because everyone swears by the company. 

I began searching Pinterest for essential oil benefits. It can be frustrating because many oils recommended are the blends or the oil from those pricy companies. I started taking notes on pure oils and their benefits. Then I decided to start looking into buying those oils at a much more affordable cost. 

*At this point, I will note that this isn't a sponsored post. I wish it was, but I've paid full price for all of my oils.

I found a site called PipingRock and their oils are very affordable. I'm still trying them out and finding out which ones I like best. These are some of my favorites.

However, I have a good amount of oils and even have an order on the way..

I also recently found a shop called TheChilledPenguin and they have some blends, I placed an order and received it days later! My favorite part is that the blends come in a roller bottle and are extremely affordable. 

Although I'm not someone who thinks that essential oils can cure everything, I am a firm believer in them. They've helped when when I had a headache, anxiety, stress, no energy, or can't sleep. So I've using them to help keep me calm and happy while I enjoy my vacation.

Feel free to check out my essential oil Pinterest board I started for more info and tips.

Do you use essential oils? Do they help you? Please, feel free to give me any more suggestions or recommendations!

Thursday, July 24, 2014


Since March I've been working 50-60+ hour weeks and sometimes that's on top of going to school full time. The most time off I've had in a row was 2 days. As of 4:30 today I am officially on vacation and will have 6 full days off!!

Today I only had to work 6 hours, but those 6 short hours felt like an entire day. I started getting extremely crabby towards the end of my shift and Discover kept calling me to tell me that my card had suspicious charges on it. Long story short, it was a really bad day. 

However, I was able to end my shift and start my vacation the right way....

Yes. That would be the beautiful Stanley Cup! I always wanted to see the cup, but I never thought I'd be able to say I drank a margarita out of it! Unfortunately I look like crap, but it doesn't even matter. 

I came home and enjoyed a much deserved beer. I will continue to enjoy a few drinks tonight then I need to be productive tomorrow before I'm able to fully enjoy my vacation to this gorgeous place...

I'll make sure to post many pictures on Instagram. Feel free to follow along username: MandyShippe