Tonight is a night that I shouldn't blog. However, there is something I love so much about writing a blog post when I'm filled with intense emotions. It's therapeutic to me. I don't even know if people still read this blog, I've failed miserably at it. If you've kept up with my blog and still read it, then you'll probably keep reading. If not, at least I have a place to vent right now.
Overall, my life is going amazing. I'm working more than ever and I had finals this week. Monday's class I had a project/presentation due, I ended up getting 100% on it.. which means I ended up with 100% in the class. My second project & final that I had Wednesday was in the class that both tests I've taken in the course I've received 100% on. I've never been more busy in life and I've never done better in my classes.
So life should be absolutely wonderful, right? Oh, wait.. it's life and it's never that simple. It's not even that I'm unhappy, I think I'm just overwhelmed and dealing with too much all at once. I feel like I have people to talk to about things, but I don't have people I can talk to in depth about things I really want to get off my chest.
It makes it hard to express any feeling other than pure happiness when I know I'm still being watched by people from my old job. People have mentioned horrible things that have been said at my old work about me. I even has my ex-boss text me threatening to sue me 3 hours after I posted on one of my social media accounts that I never knew it was illegal to make an employer pay for broken glasses or when someone walks out on a tab. I also mentioned that I regret never keeping better track of tips since "at a previous job" I was never paid, I only received tips because the tips that ended up being claimed for me equaled out every pay period.. even though I never made enough to get by. Never once did I mention a name, and I still will not. Therefor, suing me for "conduct detrimental to business" is a long shot.
If you've been a reader for a while and you've made it this far, then I will admit that a few months ago I was able to put the past aside and become civil with my ex that I dated for 3 years. It's been both a good and bad thing. It's not something everyone can understand, because it seems like it'd be more complicated than what it simply is. I have no feelings for him in that way, I can honestly say I truly don't believe I ever could. That ship has sailed.
I've been dealing with a lot of personal things that I so badly want to mention, but I can't seem to word them right. However, I'm getting better at admitting my faults. I've been doing better at handling hard situations and standing up for myself. I have moments of weakness, but I'm just powering through them the best that I can.
I guess I'm just at a weird point in my life. So many things are amazing, yet so many things confuse the hell out of me daily. I'm working on wrapping my head around it all and hopefully sorting out everything.